Dear Gage

Dear sweet Gage, you are so in the forefront of my mind these past few days as I prepare to meet your little brother. I fondly remember preparing to meet you. We had to take your sheet off of the crib today to put in the baby's new bedding. It had been under the blanket for over a year but to my breathtaking surprise...it smelled just like you. That was about 4 oclock. It's now 7 and I haven't gotten over the vivid smell of you and the image in my mind of you lying in your crib that last night before you crashed. I miss you. I stayed up for over an hour in the middle of the night last night looking at your pictures. You are so beautiful. Your smile melts my heart. No matter how many other children I have in my life, you will always be my beanbob. My little buddy. My sweetpea. My Gage. I love you, Mommy