Samuel Tate

Gage is a big brother! His little brother Samuel Tate was born last Thursday, September 16th. He had some trouble breathing so he has been in the NICU for the past week. Hopefully we will get to bring him home next week. It has been so surreal to have another baby in the hospital. I thought for sure that this baby would not need tubes or wires. But there he is, surrounded by the all too familiar sounds of the hospital. At this point, it is terribly painful to separate my memories of Gage from my reality of Samuel. I feel like I am back in that nightmare and I cannot believe that we have to do this again. I know I sound pessimistic, but damnit, this is so unfair! Samuel Tate is doing wonderfully and at this point has no real medical issues. They are watching him to make sure he has regulated his breathing for 5 solid days before they send him home. He has come very far from this time last week when he truly had breathing problems. This should cause no lifelong effects and in a couple of weeks all of this should be behind us. But it was heartwrenching to once again come home from the hospital with no baby. Poor Emily is confused but at least she gets to see him once a day for 15 minutes. Hopefully the next time I update, Gage's little brother will be home! This makes me love and miss Gage even more if that is possible. Samuel is so sweet and makes such sweet baby noises and faces. I have fallen in love!