What If

I was thinking so much last night about all of the what if's. I was going to write a long post listing them all out. But really...there's just one that matters:


What if Gage was still alive?



I still plan to write my list, but none of them are more important than this one.



Gage...I love you. Emily talks about you all the time and draws pictures for you. And Sam...I KNOW he knows you. So many times he has talked and laughed at something over my right shoulder. Last night when I was putting him to bed, I showed him your pictures and his eyes immediately lit up in recognition and he smiled and talked to you. I wish just once I could see what he sees. I miss you. Mommy